I can't believe it's been 6 months since we lost your smile and our own in the same moment. I think about you everyday. I do everything I can to hold on to the sound of your voice, to the scent of your skin, to the feeling of your love. Every day I make a genuine effort to not lose any piece of you. I can't bare the thought of forgetting anything at all.
A half of a year has past already. How on Earth is it possible? I think about all the days that you fought and how it seemed that your days of agony would never end, and now it seems like mine won't. I try so hard to be strong. I try to put on a brave face and remember that you're no longer within reach of the wrath that cancer unleashed on you. It's the only thought that keeps me from completely falling apart.
I hate that I can't hold your hand like I did so many times before. I hate that now the only way I can talk to you is in a blog. I hate that I can't bring myself to your grave. I want to visit so badly, but thinking of kneeling next to the Earth and knowing that you're inside of it and not on top of it where you belong, is more than I think my broken heart can take right now.
You made this place so beautiful, Steffy. I'm sure that you're beaming smile and brilliant chocolate brown eyes are shinning beauty over each and every inch of Heaven. Until we see each other again...I love you...
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