As odd as it may sound I keep praying and hoping to see Steff. Every time I wake up in the morning, or walk into my room, I hope that she'll be sitting on the foot of my bed. I know this isn't possible - but why not? It has been in my world before.
When I was little, after my mom died, I could see her all the time. She would come to me in dreams and in the wind and sometimes I would literally see her. At first it would completely freak me out. But once I realized that she was just there to make it known that she would never really be gone, it wasn't so scary anymore. In fact, I loved it. It was special.
I thought that perhaps since yesterday was 2 months since she made her way to Heaven, that maybe she would come back to see me. Maybe let me know that she was at my birthday party, or that she loved her new place in the world.
I just want to see her so badly. I miss her so much that words can't explain it. But it's all I have so I do my best.
Steff, if you can somehow read this, know that I love you and miss you so much. I wished for you for my birthday this year.
Your words are touching and your thoughts are always heard. I hope that you can continue to get through this day by day and if you ever need me, I'm just a phone call away :) Not only did you wish for Stephanie this year, you wished for the lives of thousands of others and everyone heard you.
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