Shoe Shopping with Steff

Today I woke up with this empty feeling - like I was missing. But then I realized it wasn't me that was missing...it was my Steffy that was missing.

When Steff was sick, I focused on her. Once she passed, I focused on Derick. Now that life is starting to create it's own version of normal without her, I've become lost in my sorrow. My soul feels lost among the pieces of my broken heart.

I cried all morning. My face hurts. My heart hurts. My world is broken. So I did the one thing that always makes me feel better. I went shoe shopping. I was looking for a very specific pair of shoes. I couldn't find them anywhere...not in my size anyway.

So I went to Bakers. They had the closest to what I was looking for, but the color was still a little off. The sales girl looked at me with an expression that I struggle to find the words to describe. It was as if she knew me.

She said to me, "Go to Macy's. They will have what you're looking for. I have the shoes you want, and that's where I bought mine."

I thanked her and as I was walking out, I asked her name. With kind eyes and a gentle voice, she smiled at me and said, "Stephanie. I hope you find what you're looking for.".

I replied "Thank you Stephanie, you're my new best friend."

We both laughed and I walked out of the store. Immediately tears flooded over the rims of my eyes. I couldn't believe it. I mean, I know Stephanie is a common name, but seriously?! It was like my Steff was right there with me - shoe shopping. :-)

Even if it wasn't her, it felt like it was. For a single moment, I felt like I was shopping again with my dear, sweet, sister, Steffy.