I must have thought about this moment a million times. The moment when it would be exactly one whole year since the day she left us all here to miss her forever. And it's nothing like what I thought it would be.
Last year on this day I remember waking up with complete heart break feeling and thinking, "Tia, you have to pull it together. Steff needs you today.", and so I did. I got up, I dressed for her funeral. I must have looked at her picture a hundred times thinking about how much I didn't want that day to exist. But the reality was that it did exist. My sweet, beautiful friend was no longer here with us.
Today is exactly one year since her funeral and therefore the beginning of a whole new life. A life without my beloved Stephenie Marie Gilbert. A life that I'm still not quite ready for.
But with your friends, family, and loved ones, you will persevere. Love you, Tia
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