Today is the day before my 25th birhday. I never thought in a millions years that I would have to celebrate it without Steff. I would have never imagined at this time last year that she wouldn't be here with us. After all we didn't even know she was sick at this time last year.
I went to lunch with my good friends Leah and Michelle today. At lunch I received a Team Goddard bracelet for our friend John who is battling cancer. It breaks my heart. I hate that this vicious disease is taking the people we love. It makes me angry!
If I could have any one wish for my birthday it would be for the cure to cancer. I would give Derick the love of his life back and I would give our sweet friend Cat her handsome husband back. I know that there is no turning back the hands of time, but maybe if there was a way to prevent other families from having to go through what we've all been through, then it might give losing Steff a sense of purpose. A reason - that's all I want. Why? Why did we have to lose her?! Why does everyone that loves John have to lose him.
I would give anything to have one more hour with Steff. There isn't anything I wouldn't do to give Derick one more day with the girl he loves more than he loves himself.
Fuck Cancer - It fucking sucks!
:( You're not alone in this battle to cure cancer. I wish the same and will continue to pray and help for the fight to find a cure as much as I can. I feel your pain and although my wounds from the loss' of loved ones aren't as open, they're there. This is something real to believe in, something more necessary than many people know. Stay strong, Tia. Keep fighting and keep believing,there are so many of us here with you.
ReplyDeleteMy prayers are with John and Cat Goddard and their families, along with many others who are battling this deadly disease.